Jolt awake
Who’s beside me?
No memories.
Where am I?

Slow breath,
soft darkness,
am I safe?
Someone pulled the trigger.

Flash flood
screams then silence
Who’s alive?
No one.

Sweat drips,
pulse pounds,
tears fall,
who am I?

No more sleep,
not tonight.
Third night
in a row.

Fists clenched
nails dig-in
most stay awake
no more deaths.

Vivid dreams,
is it real?
I can’t tell,
breath deeply.

Slow the pulse,
he snores,
I know him.
I am safe.

Sleep again
Strange dreams
bothered mind.
Jolt awake


Open Window

A child howls
not in pain,
nor anger, fear, or joy.

A machine hums
a drill, maybe.
The child howls in time.

An engine roars
music pump. Pump. Pumping.
Gravel grates as it brakes.

Soft, white, pollen floats by
in a blue blue sky.
Nearly peaceful.

Howling. Humming. Pumping.
An open window.
A type of city life.

My goals so far

Writing goal: My boyfriend told me about Newton’s waste books, where he would write all his thoughts and calculations down hiddley piddley. So, I bought a Zap book and am now using that to write my stories and thoughts. I draw and I write whatever is going on in my head and it feels amazing.

Journal goal: The waste book has taken over from the journal. Every night, I sit in bed and write something, story, a thought, an idea, whatever comes to me.

Bullet Journal: I have up until August planned out in it. It is so perfect. I’m happy with my layout and organisation.

Reading goal: Here are my reviews so far:

1. Simples mortels, passez votre chemin by Charlaine Harris
2. A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man by James Joyce
3. Oryx and Crake by Margaret Atwood
4. James Potter and the Curse of the Gatekeeper by G. Norman Lippert
5. James Potter and the Hall of Elders Crossing by G. Norman Lippert

I haven’t read anything in the month of April, so I have to get back to reading.

Fitness goals: I’m up to 6km! And my PB is like 6:26 m/km Open-mouthed smile I’ve recently started to do ten minutes a day: ten minutes leg workout, ten minutes core workout or ten minutes arms workout. And I’m still going to yoga.

Buddhism goals: After the ten minute workout, I do a meditation session. I haven’t been doing much Buddhism though, I still try to carry out the eightfold path and five precepts in my daily life.

New goals:
I’ve been feeling very homesick lately, and I’ve decided to immerse myself in Irish-ness as much as I can. I’ve taken up Irish Smile I have a 47 day streak on Duolingo, I downloaded the TG4 player to watch some programmes in Irish and I’ve got a couple of books that I’m working through.

Since leaving, and if I’m honest even in school, I always wanted to actually be able to speak Irish. I always put it off, well with the beautiful web I went in search of free resources and found plenty. So here I am, finally learning my real mother tongue.

Another thing I’ve always wanted to do was learn how to play the Irish flute. Now, those things are expensive, so I bought myself a tin whistle and am re-learning how to play it. I’m actually learning how to read music as well.

Life in general:  I had a hard couple of weeks where everything went a bit sideways but I’m back on form now and am happy out. I have a good life and that’s the important thing. Thank you for reading my update Open-mouthed smile

Review of

James Potter and the Hall of Elders' Crossing (James Potter, #1)James Potter and the Hall of Elders’ Crossing by G. Norman Lippert

My rating: 2 of 5 stars

I squealed with delight when I realized that someone had written about the Potter kids! It was interesting. Interesting to see how someone else saw the story going. It is definitely for the younger reader, there were parts that just annoyed me in their immaturity. However, I still enjoyed it and went straight on to read the second. I read it a while ago so unfortunately, I cannot remember the details. I won’t re-read it, but I’m happy I got to read it once.

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Review of

James Potter and the Curse of the Gatekeeper (James Potter, #2)James Potter and the Curse of the Gatekeeper by G. Norman Lippert

My rating: 3 of 5 stars

I read this straight after the first book and it was far better. The author, I think, had the flow going and it made a lot more sense. I really liked how he implemented Merlin into the story. And I wanted to hit James Potter as many times as I wanted to hit Harry Potter in his story!
There are so many different stories going on and the characters are decent. Yes, I cursed loudly at the idiotic moves of the characters but, sure, I do that with most books and series I watch! Once again, I feel that younger readers will get the most pleasure from this series. As an avid fan though, I’d recommend giving them a shot. It’s nice to revisit the world.

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